I wanna get my ass kicked by..................

Haven't posted anything for quite a few days now. Besides the usual work, i've been kinda moody lately.
It's one of those phases where u feel everything about life sucks and you're frustrated with whatever you do.
It feels like the whole world is out there but you're cooked up in this shell and you don't have the energy, the skills, the talent, the vivacity to get out and live the way you're supposed to.

I've been trying to get back to reading when i get the time. But i've just been too lazy to stimulate my mind. Whenever i am free, i just slouch on the bed and watch TV (it's the easiest way to escape from responsibilities and the rest of the world). I saw a couple of romantic movies yesterday and that got me all the more moody. What can i say, i'm a hopeless romantic (not a very macho thing to say, i know. I mean, i love watching Hugh Grant movies... auckhhh. It's a disease).

Maybe that's what's been missing in my life lately- someone who inspires me enough to enable me to face head-on whatever comes my way.
I need to be dragged out of this self-made hole i'm in. I wanna be shocked, shaken, amazed, excited, confounded, dumbfounded, dumbstrucked, mesmerised, fascinated, again. Yeah, yeah, I'm talking about falling in love (yet again, hehe).

That feeling you get when you're infatuated with someone, is just SOOOO amazing. It is so illogical. You get butterflies in your stomach, smiling at odd hours and places when you realise how silly it really is...it takes over your mind, makes you give up your pride. And sometimes, it's pure agony, but you don't want it to end. I think that's the kind of agonising stimulation i need right now.
I WANNA get the shit kicked out of me by LOVE. (O shit, i can't believe i'm really writing this!!!!!!!!)